Tuesday, February 21, 2012

The Purpose

"I am just here to love and the rest will come with time"
...because I wasn't created to have a social network. I wasn't created to go to events. I wasn't created to have the latest clothes. I wasn't created to eat good meals. I wasn't created to have nice things. I wasn't created to go to church or even the mountains or the ocean. I wasn't created to go to college, get a degree and make loads of money. I wasn't created to get married and have cute kids and live in a cute house.
I was created for Jesus. To love Him and love His people and that is all. 
So next time I'm wondering why I feel empty, and why I don't I have all that I think I need, maybe it's because that's not what I was created for. I was never supposed to have or do all of that. None of those things are in any close proximity to my purpose.
Blessed to have these things, yes. 
But necessary?
essential for a full life?
no
All that I need. 
ALL that I need, 
resides in the temple that has been built in my heart. 
And that is it. and that is real. and that is where life, purpose is to be found.
Not in the gifts that God gives us, but in God Himself.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

The Quote From Katie

"I have learned that I will not change the world. Jesus will do that. I can, however, change the world for one person. So I keep stopping and loving one person at a time. Because this is my call as a Christian." Katie Davis, Kisses From Katie

Lord, give me the capacity to love, to care, to serve.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

The Soul Book

people
people everywhere
big . little . young . old
happy . sad . hurt

stories
stories everywhere . from everyone
beneath the surface of the skin is the novel of the soul
if i had the eyes to see, to read yours,
then maybe I could love,
maybe i could understand, 
maybe i could shake this apathy that consumes me

if there are souls hurting then why am i not helping
why am i acting as if i know your soul story to be good
why am i not loving,
wastefully loving everyone around

sometimes i think it's not the hurting that need the most help,
it's ME
a cure for apathy,
that would fix more than a doctor ever could

Lord, cure me
give me eyes . give me ears . give me understanding
to be consumed in the novels of the souls that surround me

Monday, February 6, 2012

The Song From Jimmy

A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life
In Your presence God I’m completely satisfied...
I rejoice in this divine romance

let's spend our time making earth look like Heaven
Thy Kingdom Come

Saturday, January 28, 2012

The Yearning

"holy design
this place in time
that i might seek and find my God
my God

Lord i want to yearn for You
i want to burn with passion
over You and only You
Lord i want to yearn

Your joy is mine
yet why am i fine
with all my singing and bringing grain
in light of Him

Lord i want to yearn for You
i want to burn with passion
over You and only You
Lord i want to yearn

oh You give life and breath
through Him You give all things
in Him we live and move
that's why i sing"

The Plea

Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, 
that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

The Fear

"where You go we will follow"

That's quite a statement. 

Yes Lord, where You go I will follow, but how do I know where that is when I can't tangibly see You?
What if I think that I'm following You and then it turns out that I'm not?
What if I mess up?
What if I do the wrong thing?
What if I don't do enough?

And that's where the promise is whispered to my heart
If God can clothe the lillies of the field and feed the birds of the air, 
How much more He will take care of me, 
His child

He knows my heart 
The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak
Oh, but I want so badly for my flesh to be strong
 And that's just it-
My flesh isn't ever going to be strong and that's the whole point of the gospel

Christ took my burden because I couldn't bear it
Because i CAN'T do it
It's not going to happen 

"for I came not to call the righteous, but the sinner"

It's not all on my shoulders, it never will be
The Lord will lead me
I will stumble plenty a time,
He will pick me back up, 
I will see the arms that pick me up,
I will be reminded that it is His love for me that put those scars on His wrists
Those scars are not there because of what I do for Christ, 
They're because of what He did for me



Monday, January 16, 2012

The Conference





breathe in|breathe out
city lights and busy streets
mmm its the urban oasis

Passion.
No, not Passion, but God.
We tend to forget the moving power behind these conferences we go to,
giving all of the glory to a conference instead of the Lord.

Anywho, I can't believe I haven't written about it yet. 
It wasn't near as emotional as I had expected it to be, instead very substantial. I can confidently say that the Lord used every single aspect of those 3 days to change my life. 
Doubt eradicated. Identity and purpose established. Friendships made stronger. 
so thankful that I was blessed with the oppurtunity to start the semester in that way.
While there however, I felt that the Lord was putting it on my heart to pursue participating in Youth With a Mission during my spring semester of 2013. Still praying and in the application process. The Lord still has alot of doors to open; I will have to get accepted into the porgram and approved by Auburn to have my scholarship put on hold so I won't lose any scholarships by taking the semester to do this. I'd be doing 3 months of training and 2 months of missions work overseas. Again, if this is where the Lord wants me, He will open those doors and if not He will shut them. Just the experience of saying yes to what I feel Him calling me to do has been fruitful in and of itself. 
Into my first semester, the Lord is teaching me how to glorify Him in the everyday environment- showing me that where I am right now is exactly where I am supposed to be. I can glorify Him just as much as I could halfway around the world. He has already blessed me with some amazing encounters with others and I know He will continue to do so.

He's on the move, no doubt and I'm so excited to see what He is going to do this semester.



Friday, January 6, 2012

The Power

I believe in the LORD
maker of Heaven and earth

YAHWEH

my God spoke creation into existence
He destroys cities by Heavenly fire
He makes walls crumble and seas divide
He brings dead to life
even the touch of His cloak brings healing
so do not doubt
my God is more than able to do anything i could possibly imagine
He is doing something in me far greater than i could ever imagine
He is doing something in you far greater than you could ever imagine

| let this doubt in my heart be dead |

Sunday, December 25, 2011


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