Sunday, December 25, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
The Damns Given
what do i want?
approval.
approval.
who do i need to be?
ive tried
ill be anything
| no |
not anything
me
| just me |
| no |
not just me
me !
don't hold back
my mind may be at the top but my soul is at the center
it's time to let it speak
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
The ER
Sitting in the ER.
To my left sits a lady with her face in her palm.
Her other hand clenching her side.
She appears to be doing everything she can to hold in the pain.
To my right are sweet friends,
waiting on the results of their friend's ct scan.
She is well.
No seat belt, car totaled, walking away with a fractured arm.
Behind me are two tired women,
resting,
waiting on loved ones.
At the front desk is a daughter,
all I hear is
"8 stinnets"
"massive heart attack"
I see her dear mother,
barely able to support herself in the chair.
Her other hand clenching her side.
She appears to be doing everything she can to hold in the pain.
To my right are sweet friends,
waiting on the results of their friend's ct scan.
She is well.
No seat belt, car totaled, walking away with a fractured arm.
Behind me are two tired women,
resting,
waiting on loved ones.
At the front desk is a daughter,
all I hear is
"8 stinnets"
"massive heart attack"
I see her dear mother,
barely able to support herself in the chair.
I walk in laughing at my friend's clumsy mistake,
hoping that his stitches won't hurt too bad,
planning on fixing it with ice cream afterwards.
hoping that his stitches won't hurt too bad,
planning on fixing it with ice cream afterwards.
I walk out with eyes wide open to God's grace.
Grace that I live a life that has been free of loss,
a healthy body that doesn't require much,
and an existence that has never known pain.
Grace that I live a life that has been free of loss,
a healthy body that doesn't require much,
and an existence that has never known pain.
It's easy to forget the world we live in.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
The Little Rhyme
One thing I ask is to be found bowed at Your feet,
that You may be pleased.
That my heart may be fixed where true joys are to be found,
effacing all the worries that so easily surround.
My life is Yours, I know that to be true
but please take my heart and yield it Lord, completely to You.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
The Thanks
Here I sit,
on a lovely bench under a tree with falling leaves,
with cobblestones under my feet and a sun painted all shades of orange setting behind me.
I can hear the squirrels romp through the leaves around me.
on a lovely bench under a tree with falling leaves,
with cobblestones under my feet and a sun painted all shades of orange setting behind me.
I can hear the squirrels romp through the leaves around me.
If there's one thing this semester has taught me, it is this:
I live immersed in beauty every day.
Sometimes I must do more searching to see the beauty,
but it is there all the same.
Thanksgiving is not a day.
It is not just Thursday, November 24.
If thanksgiving were that, just a day- how bland life would be.
How many blessings around us would go unnoticed if it was constrained to 24 of the 8,760 hours we are given each year?
No- Thanksgiving is a posture in which I am to live.
It is the final article I must clothe myself in daily.
It is the lens through which I am allowed to see beauty,
to see the blessings the Lord surrounds me with.
Without thanksgiving, the beauty is drawn out of our lives.
Our selfishness,
our dissatisfaction with life,
is magnified all the more with this ignorance.
Thanksgiving is the staple.
It is the acknowledgment of all that the Lord chooses to bless us with.
It softens our hearts to His love and opens our eyes to His blessings.
I live immersed in beauty every day.
Sometimes I must do more searching to see the beauty,
but it is there all the same.
Thanksgiving is not a day.
It is not just Thursday, November 24.
If thanksgiving were that, just a day- how bland life would be.
How many blessings around us would go unnoticed if it was constrained to 24 of the 8,760 hours we are given each year?
No- Thanksgiving is a posture in which I am to live.
It is the final article I must clothe myself in daily.
It is the lens through which I am allowed to see beauty,
to see the blessings the Lord surrounds me with.
Without thanksgiving, the beauty is drawn out of our lives.
Our selfishness,
our dissatisfaction with life,
is magnified all the more with this ignorance.
Thanksgiving is the staple.
It is the acknowledgment of all that the Lord chooses to bless us with.
It softens our hearts to His love and opens our eyes to His blessings.
So, during this holiday, I am thankful.
Thankful for home cooked meals.
Thankful for the sweet friends and families that I got to spend time with this week.
Thankful for my own family
And my thanksgiving must not stop here-
in this moment,
in this day,
in this week.
It must continue-
day by day,
moment by moment,
as the Lord opens all of our eyes to the blessings surrounding.
Thankful for home cooked meals.
Thankful for the sweet friends and families that I got to spend time with this week.
Thankful for my own family
And my thanksgiving must not stop here-
in this moment,
in this day,
in this week.
It must continue-
day by day,
moment by moment,
as the Lord opens all of our eyes to the blessings surrounding.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
The Years That Go By
"The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty; yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone, and we fly away....so teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom"Psalm 90
The hands of God.
Out of the same hands that bring beautiful autumn trees comes the wild winds that rip them to shreds. Life is fragile.
Time owes us nothing.
We aren't guaranteed another minute, another hour, another day.
Ann Voskamp describes time as a river that rushes through without any regard of travelers passing through. I think if the Lord instilled the reality within all of us that our days truly are numbered,
we'd all live so differently. We'd be so much more intentional about our life. We'd treasure and nurture the relationships in our lives. As a Christian, I would feel the urgency to love on others so much more. I'd be more direct in telling everyone of all that my Lord has done for me. We really aren't promised anything. As cliche as this is, we all need to learn to live as if tomorrow wasn't there. And if we are honest, it's not. We don't know what the future holds, but we stroll through life as if we do. If I live to be 60, I don't want to wake up and realize that I've wasted 21,900 days of my life with meaningless tasks and unintentional conversations with people I never took the time to deeply care about and a relationship with the Lord that I never tried to tell others about. Even just with college. Time is fragile, and this is such a vital time to learn from the Lord. Why would I waste that by seeking out selfish desires, so I can learn the same lessons I did in high school 50 more times? Not that I have the ability to choose the higher road, because I don't. But there is a desire to live and grow close to the Lord. Teach me to number my days.
Out of the same hands that bring beautiful autumn trees comes the wild winds that rip them to shreds. Life is fragile.
Time owes us nothing.
We aren't guaranteed another minute, another hour, another day.
Ann Voskamp describes time as a river that rushes through without any regard of travelers passing through. I think if the Lord instilled the reality within all of us that our days truly are numbered,
we'd all live so differently. We'd be so much more intentional about our life. We'd treasure and nurture the relationships in our lives. As a Christian, I would feel the urgency to love on others so much more. I'd be more direct in telling everyone of all that my Lord has done for me. We really aren't promised anything. As cliche as this is, we all need to learn to live as if tomorrow wasn't there. And if we are honest, it's not. We don't know what the future holds, but we stroll through life as if we do. If I live to be 60, I don't want to wake up and realize that I've wasted 21,900 days of my life with meaningless tasks and unintentional conversations with people I never took the time to deeply care about and a relationship with the Lord that I never tried to tell others about. Even just with college. Time is fragile, and this is such a vital time to learn from the Lord. Why would I waste that by seeking out selfish desires, so I can learn the same lessons I did in high school 50 more times? Not that I have the ability to choose the higher road, because I don't. But there is a desire to live and grow close to the Lord. Teach me to number my days.
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